Full-Blown Suffering: My Battle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by quick shocks, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically start with intense pain behind one eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with sudden, excruciating pain around a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records propose bizarre remedies for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

National guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are handled with acute treatment alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Mrs. Sonya Jones
Mrs. Sonya Jones

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